Three months ago, I had an ultrasound that revealed I had a big honkin’ nodule on my left thyroid gland, with a black spot at the bottom of the nodule. I also had abnormally large nodules on my right thyroid gland.
The endocrinologist wanted me to get a biopsy. On the surface, it’s a perfectly reasonable step: Use the tools of Western medicine to find out what’s going on in there. But I knew that even if, Gd forbid, the biopsy showed the cells to be cancerous, I would not get the recommended procedure – namely, removing my thyroid glands — for a few reasons:
- It was the medical system that fucked up my body, not the car crash. The car crash just catapulted me into a system in which I went from bad to worse.
- It was, after a decade of pain and suffering, dance that healed me – something that nobody could have seen coming. It was, in other words, my body that healed itself.
- My thyroid gland is there for a reason. Rather than cut it out, I want to figure out how to heal it, so that my body functions optimally and in full health.
- If I were to remove my thyroid gland, I would have to take pharmaceuticals for the rest of my life. It would be life-endangering to not have those medications at my access. Meaning I would be completely and totally dependent on pharmaceuticals for living.
- From age 11 to 22, I had intense respiratory illness – asthma, allergies, and nasal congestion. I took four medications four times a day for that illness. At age 22, through intuition and sheer mental determination, I then got myself completely off all those medications – because I did not want to be dependent on pharmaceuticals. By age 24, I had weaned myself off completely. I have no intention of returning to a state of pharmaceutical dependency.
- I believe in the integrity of my body as a whole organic system. If I were to remove my thyroid gland, it would throw my body out of whack. My body would end up in an even more disharmonious state and, as a result, quite possibly dependent on even more medications.
- Medications cause side effects. Nobody knows how my body might react to the drugs that are prescribed when a thyroid gland is removed. I recently had horrible side effects to antibiotics – including one where I lost my normal cognitive abilities for several weeks. I want to stay away from drugs wherever humanly possible.
- If my body is dependent on medications for treating a removed thyroid gland, I may end up needing additional medications for treating the side effects of the initial medications. And on and on and on until my body is not my body, but a warehouse of chemicals. And who knows how I might react to any of those chemicals.
- Considering that even in the worst case scenario, I will choose the holistic route, there is no reason to subject myself to an invasive procedure to determine whether the growths are cancerous or not.
Which all goes to say, I am seeing my game and raising the ante: I am keeping my radically pure diet – vegan, organic, no sweeteners of any kind, no soy, no gluten, and no fried food (though I may allow food cooked in coconut oil, since apparently that does not create free radicals).
I also am adding a few things:
- I am going to sing every day – vibrating the area that is affected. Just as dance healed my pain, so do I believe that singing can heal my thyroid.
- I am going to take a holistic lab test on my iodine levels – determining if I may need iodine supplements
- I will go at least twice a month, if not more, for bodywork sessions with a practitioner I have worked with for over a decade and whose energy is profoundly healing.
- I will read affirmations and other healing books daily.
- I will religiously take green supplements – gathered from the earth and the sea.
- I will religiously eat raw cilantro. A friend of mine had a rabbit that developed a tumor. My friend fed the rabbit cilantro a couple of times a day for three months, and the tumor disappeared.
- I will up the amount of raw foods I eat, so that the produce I consume maintains its nutrients.
At the end of the day, this is my body; this is my life; and this is my path.