A few weeks ago, I began doing outreach to pain organizations, in the interest of securing gigs as a speaker on the various aspects of healing from pain – everything from dance for pain relief, to patient advocacy. Everyone I called was interested in my work, including a man at a certain national organization that seemed very hooked up in the pain-management medical world.
As I shared with this man my experience of healing pain through dance, and the parallel experience of that of my students, the man replied, “The thing you have to keep in mind is that in the medical community, people will say that if you can dance away the pain, it may simply have been hysterical pain.” Pause. “And that very well may be true.”
I went numb. I went numb because that attitude is exactly why I left the medical system. Despite extreme suffering, despite the fact that my once-vibrant life had come crashing down because of chronic and debilitating pain, I was treated as an hysterical or angry patient, told in so many words that “nothing happened,” that my experience of pain was all psychological.
I find it simultaneously fascinating and disturbing that when we demonstrate the power of the mind, heart, and spirit to heal the body, the prior existence of the bodily ailment is questioned – instead of the healing properties of our greater consciousness embraced. It is a rampant, backwards, dare I say primitive attitude.
Interestingly enough, it is these people – the ones posing as the intellectuals and sophisticates – who are the stupid ones. It is specifically these people – the ones who condemn and ridicule and dismiss and patronize – who lack the capacity to comprehend what is going on before their very eyes.
After all, just because it is now spring does not indicate that winter never existed. Just because I developed the extrasensory abilities to transcend and transform my pain does not mean that nothing ever happened to me and that I never had physical pain in the first place.
How dare these farces in white coats. How dare they. On top of the despair and uncertainty and fear we experience as it is, they add the emotionally abusive layer of dismissal. Causing its own chain reaction: If we cannot trust the people to whom we are supposed to turn when we are hurt; and if, furthermore, these very people hurt us on different levels, where do we go to heal?
For me, of course, the answer was, “Inside.” Because the overwhelming majority of practitioners in our medical system are raging incompetents posing as gods.