Careless Movement Strikes Again

By: Loolwa Khazzoom, Founder, Dancing with Pain

October 30th, 2009 • Living with Chronic PainPrint Print

Office Depot

I just got back from Office Depot. I went in to get them to open the impenetrable plastic containers preventing access to the various products I bought a few days ago. Why they use so much plastic wrap for such little things is beyond me, never mind why they make it impossible to open without the equivalent of a machete. Especially sucks for anyone with any semblance of hand pain, arthritis, etc.

Anyhow, so I walked in, and there was nobody at the check-out register. There were a couple of people in Office Depot uniforms talking to someone, and there was another guy in a uniform walking around. I was trying to figure out where to go and whom to approach. I stood there a minute, confused, then made my way toward the two customer service people talking to someone.

I stood patiently waiting for them to finish. Suddenly they both came at me, simultaneously, with no space or time for me to get out of the way. Never mind that neither of them acknowledged my presence or asked what I needed. They barreled at me, in a very narrow passageway that was no more than two people wide. And the guy was quite big.

It was all so sudden, I couldn’t do anything to protect myself. In retrospect, probably the only self-protective move I could have taken would have been to yell, “Stop!” Of course that gets into all kinds of weirdness. I mean, I look totally able-bodied, so why would this woman (me) be yelling at people out of the blue? I’m not sure they would respond postively, much less change their movement, becuase they probably would have no point of reference for what I was asking them to “stop.”

I felt energetically assaulted. I twerked my body, to avoid collision, and my nerves got all jacked up. What’s the deal with people who can’t hold off for, I don’t know, maybe three seconds, possibly four, to allow others the space to move and adjust safely. Pain shot through my body as they jammed past.

The woman said, “Excuse me.” The man said nothing. Nobody actually physically rammed into me. But they were so right up in my space, centimeters away, that their energy did. I was left in pain.

I was more or less limping while walking to my car and up the stairs to my home. After several days of pain-free bliss, I’m now hurting and having spasms, even as I post this blog. I’m going to dance it out of my body in a minute. But fuck, this kind of careless, thoughtless behavior really pisses me off. And it doesn’t seem there’s much I can do about it, other than raise awareness in my own little way through this blog.


mummytips October 30th, 2009

Hello lovely. I too have been experiencing a few bad days. Last night my legs were cramping all night and this morning I couldn’t stand when I tried to get out of bed.
Chin up and soldier on. Do not fear shouting STOP. Personally I like the “geez that woman is crazy” stares that result in such an outburst. It make my day.
If STOP doesnt work, a very loud ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH really does do the trick.

Sara Firman November 1st, 2009

Yes, you are raising awareness and the internet is one way.  Your story reminds me of the campaign in the UK at one time for reminding people about deafness.: that the person crossing the road might not hear you beeping your horn for example.  Maybe exploring what was done there would suggest some ways to do this for pain.   I doubt people who have not experienced the kind of pain you are in understand at all.  Just like those who are not deaf or hard of hearing often find themselves shouting at those who are, they see it only from their point of view.  Until someone is able to show them differently.  I hope the pain is subsiding for you now and you continue to be a ‘warrior’  this path.

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