I no longer try to change your mind your world your heart I know God is the Dancing Girl uninhibited running through the fields I know you presented yourself as God But you are the death of night the man in the cape Who comes to kill her rape her And that is why every time I open to possibility I am afraid Afraid of your suffocating invading manipulating shutting me down But I see her now And I know ...

Infinite possibilities I find myself Hanging out with the weirdos And challenging the system I didn't end up living The life you mapped out for me It wasn't me It wasn't even mapped out I knew those doctors Were fucked up back then And I knew that I knew But I didn't have the voice Or the backing Or the role models I ate it They were all wrong And I ate it And I suffer the consequences Because you mapped it ...

Your eagerness for empowerment Leads you to a pretzel-like state Stringing together unrelated events Ascribing meaning to what just is You look for reasons for my suffering To ease your own discomfort Adding another layer to my distress Then questioning that too My skin is the porous cover of my body A complex miracle medicine has yet to understand And though this body is more sensitive than your machine You trust abstract numbers over concrete sensations Calling what I know ...