It’s Shabbat. In the past, that meant going to the synagogue and participating in all kinds of Jewish rituals and songs. But because of a combination of sexism in the Sephardic and Mizrahi communities and some combination of racism and persistence attachment to ignorance in the Ashkenazi community, Shabbat has turned into a day of just kicking back and relaxing, on my own or with close friends.
Factoring chronic pain into my choices, I usually spend Shabbat lolling about the house or hanging out with my best friend and my DBAs (Daughters by Association – ie, her kids). But today I was wondering: If I did not have chronic pain, what else might I do today?
- Drive to the mountains and go for a hike.
- Bike about 20 miles.
- Go running on the beach.
Okay so I’ve had this crazy spastic random nerve pain all over my body, in addition to the usual pain suspects. But I don’t want it to limit me more than absolutely necessary. So how can I modify what I would do with no pain, so that I can do it with my pain levels the way they are today?
Maybe I’ll take my bike to the shop (if I can lift it into the car without exacerbating my pain), to get my tire fixed, then bike an easy 3 mile round-trip distance and see how it goes. Or maybe I’ll go to the nature reserve that is a 15 minute drive from my house, then walk a one-mile loop. I don’t think I’ll brave walking on the sand just yet, because of the intense growing pain I’ve had for the past month or so (which left me under chronic pain house arrest).
Either way, I’ll start off with a nutritious meal and a dance session. Then I’ll put myself out there and do whatever I can. Because sometimes, if not most of the time, progress happens in baby steps.