Please send healing energy and prayers my way

By: Loolwa Khazzoom, Founder, Dancing with Pain

November 29th, 2010 • Mind-Body MedicinePrint Print

Last week, I got an ultrasound, to check out a goiter and see if there was any imbalance in my thyroid. This morning, before I was properly caffeinated, I might add, I called to find out the address for my gyno appointment. While I had the administrator on the line, I asked about the results of my ultrasound.

The administrator began reading to me from the letter my doctor had written but not yet sent. Uh oh, I thought. This can’t be good. The letter informed me that I had heterogeneous thyroid, with a nodule on the left dominant gland, and that I would need to schedule an appointment with endocrinology for follow-up.

“Endocrinology? Um, you mean cancer specialists?” I asked. “Yes,” she replied. “So there’s a possibility it’s cancerous?” I asked. “Yes,” she replied.

Oh.

The next available endocrinology appointment was two weeks out, and the ones after were up to a month out. Agony.

I pressed for an immediate appointment. “I can’t deal with waiting for two weeks to find out if this is cancerous,” I pleaded. To her credit, the receptionist poked around at various locations until she came up with a winner. “Can you come today?” she asked. “Yes,” I said, knowing I’d bolt anywhere at any time and cancel anything to get this over with.

An anxious day.

I don’t feel comfortable getting into too much detail at this time, but suffice it to say this: I’m getting a biopsy, and regardless of the outcome, I’m not opting for surgery. For starters, surgery means taking out the entire thyroid, which means being on medications all day every day forever and ever and ever.

Through my teens and early 20s, I was on four medications that I had to take four times a day, for multiple respiratory conditions. Through mental determination and physical discipline, I intuitively and single-handedly got myself off all the medications within a two-year period. I don’t intend to go back on meds and be dependent on them for the rest of my life.

Second, a vocal nerve runs dangerously close to the thyroid. One wrong slip, and that’s it for my voice. No thanks. You take my voice, I’m going with it.

And perhaps most importantly, I believe in the power of self-healing. Dance. Guided imagery. Meditation. Raw whole foods (possibly, heh, vegan). So I’m using my blog to reach out and ask for your prayers, your love, your support, your healing energy, and your guidance, to help me get through this period more vibrantly alive and healthy than ever before. I believe that with the love and support of good, nurturing people, I will prevail – together, we will prevail.

If you are part of a prayer circle, please pray for me. If you dance, please send some of your beautiful dance love my way. If you make music or paint or do any other artsy activity, please have me in your thoughts during your creative process. If you know meditation techniques for healing cancer, please write to me about them. If you know books that recommend the best diet for eliminating cancer, please send me the titles.

Gd/dess willing, this nodule is benign. Regardless, I’m going in prepared. 



Comments

thyroid geek November 30th, 2010

I went trough the similar situation; on my medical exam the doctor believed she felt the nodule in my thyroid and sent me for ultrasound which did not show any nodules.
I would like to ask you few questions.
Is that nodule that you have can be seen or felt on your throat?
How large is it?
Thank you
Best wishes!

Dear Thyroid November 30th, 2010

Hi There;
First, I am very sorry to hear about all that you are going through. I understand the fear of having a goiter. I feel you. I hear you.
Second, I want to correct you because there is some misinformation here, for your wellbeing and others.
Endocrinologists work with the endocrine system. Every human being has an endocrine system. They are not oncologists. Oncologists are doctors that specialize in various cancers.  Endocrinologists traditionally treat certain forms of endocrine cancer (IE: thyroid cancer). Endocrinologists also treat thyroid conditions and autoimmune conditions that attack your thyroid.
If your goiter needs to be removed, it doesn’t mean that you will lose your ability to speak. Every person and every case is different.
I’m glad that you’re treating this medically. Thyroid diseases and disorders can be VERY DANGEROUS. We need to be under a doctor’s supervision. Even though we wish we could heal ourselves with the power of positive thinking, this isn’t the case. IT HELPS, TO BE SURE.
I wish you all the best and I hope that you’ll keep us posted about your diagnosis.
Good luck,
Dear Thyroid

Lisa November 30th, 2010

Best wishes to you. Being prepared is always best in my book too. Tho I can’t give you any real ideas it really sound like you’re doing almost everything already.
Just to clarify, did you see a thyroid specialist, an endocrinologist, or a cancer specialist, an oncologist?
No offense meant, I hope you understand.

Jennifer Jaff November 30th, 2010

Loolwa, an endocrinologist is an expert in glands and hormones, not cancer.  A cancer specialist is an oncologist.  You may not need surgery, and these days, they’re actually doing non-invasive “surgeries” down the throat without incisions.  So take it one step at a time and don’t assume the worst.  J

Mary November 30th, 2010

I will send you healing energy and pray that this can be resolved. I have begun doing healing energy work and the results can be amazing.
Blessings.

thyroid geek December 1st, 2010

According to the current gudelines , nodules over 1 cm in dameter are subject to biopsy, however even if the nodule is calcified and has a blood flow it has only 22 % chance of having cancer.
there is no way to diagnose a nodule as a cancerous just by the ultrasound.

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