It has been one hell of a ride since mid-August, when I sustained an auditory injury. There have been so many stories I have wanted to write about, but I have been in survival mode and have not been able to, or shall I say have chosen not to, prioritize blogging.
Suffice it to say that things have been challenging in every category — physically, emotionally, financially, socially, you name it. It’s been tough. Tonight, in fact, I was feeling nearly paralyzed by fear about my current financial situation. So here’s what I did:
I stopped trying to do anything about it. I took a scalding hot bath with Epsom salts. Then I lay on my bed, in the dark, and ticked off things for which I am grateful — counting on my fingers. By the time I got to the first round on my second hand, I was already feeling significantly more relaxed, as well as happy.
I got to 30 gratitudes and only stopped so that I could take another dip in the tub. Then I kept going. In fact, I can keep on going. I have such abundance in my life. Which puts it all in perspective. And once I achieved that sense of calm and perspective, I felt a burst of energy to roll up my sleeves and get down to business.
But first I’m going to dance. Because with all this stress, I keep pushing off the primary thing that heals me. But not tonight.