It has been one hell of a ride since mid-August, when I sustained an auditory injury.  There have been so many stories I have wanted to write about, but I have been in survival mode and have not been able to, or shall I say have chosen not to, prioritize blogging.

Suffice it to say that things have been challenging in every category — physically, emotionally, financially, socially, you name it.  It’s been tough.  Tonight, in fact, I was feeling nearly paralyzed by fear about my current financial situation.  So here’s what I did: 

I stopped trying to do anything about it.  I took a scalding hot bath with Epsom salts.  Then I lay on my bed, in the dark, and ticked off things for which I am grateful — counting on my fingers.  By the time I got to the first round on my second hand, I was already feeling significantly more relaxed, as well as happy.

I got to 30 gratitudes and only stopped so that I could take another dip in the tub.  Then I kept going.  In fact, I can keep on going.  I have such abundance in my life.  Which puts it all in perspective.  And once I achieved that sense of calm and perspective, I felt a burst of energy to roll up my sleeves and get down to business.

But first I’m going to dance.  Because with all this stress, I keep pushing off the primary thing that heals me.  But not tonight.

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